Thursday, September 16, 2010

Being Single Rocks or Sucks?

OK! I have been single for the past 6 months and i wont lie its been a mixture and roller coaster of emotions.Right now, i dont know if i should be glad or sad.

When i broke up with my ex, i had a myriad of feelings; anger,sadness and strangely a feeling of relief and excitement! Relief that all my months of feeling unappreciated and neglected and plain unhappy was coming to an end and excitement that there had to be better things ahead of me. I did the normal,i shed tears,lost a lot of weight,deleted all his numbers,pictures and every source of communication between us,and went on a complete physical renovation.After the weeks of self neglect,i started taking better care of myself and went on a mad shopping binge! Now i realise it was all in the bid to make myself happy.

A few weeks later,i heard my ex had started dating someone else and then began the downward spiral.Maybe at the back of my mind,i was nursiing some small ray of hope that we would get back together,that after a few weeks he would realise that he couldn't live without me. Oh well...i didnt see that coming and i guess it was just the kick in the butt i needed.

Now months down the line, i can say the dating scene has not been encouraging AT ALL! I have gone on the worst dates you can imagine,i have met the most 'disturbing guys' for lack of a better descriptive word.Cheapskates,skanks,jerks,retards,you name it, i have seen it. It makes me look back with nolstagia,the days i cried because of my boyfriend,the akward moments with his family, the no money so lets stay at home dates(you had to be understanding).

Anyway,like the good soldier i am, i have to make the best of everything. I have to make being single look sexy! Ihave to look hot at all times and go on dates that id rather not go to(are there any good guys anymore?)

I have something to look forward to anyway.tomorrow is a friday and am hanging out with the girls! its guaranteed to be fun and i cant wait.Maybe ill catch me a hot guy whose employed,employable or an employer.....tata!

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